Too many times I find myself lying awake at night, thinking with thousands of thought swirling and racing around in my head. I struggle to calm my thoughts as white noise surrounds me. The quietness cannot bring peace to my already disturbed soul. I am lonely. I am surrounded by ones I love, and they love me, but there is void that is not being met and filled. I miss them, as memories flood my brain, tears filled with my previous days mascara over flow from my eyes in an seemingly unending stream. A small puddle of a heart broken woman is left on my pillow when I have finally wiped away the last tear.
I wish I could bring the friends I have and had and shrink them, put them in a box and keep them with me by my side constantly everyday, as I do with them in my heart. I long for their hugs, their laughter, sweet touches. I want to make memories that will comfort me when I feel like I do in the future. It is sad distance can make missing someone worse and worse with every passing day. But you love them more and more with everyday too.
The growing up part of life is something I despise. Some change, and that which they once could fulfill, they no longer do. Others, are swept off their feet to go on to the continuation of their life time dreams, their life mission. They have to do what they have to do. If
Getting ready to leave this cruel city, going to see them, makes me feel like a child on Christmas morning, who has for the last while had their face plastered to the glass of the store that carried their most prized and sought after toy. It feels as if time and distance has been fighting together to keep my life far away so ours cannot become intertwined...
Until I see their sweet faces, tears will continue to fall as I lay alone at night, and the most memorable memories will keep the smile on my face during the day
I wish I could bring the friends I have and had and shrink them, put them in a box and keep them with me by my side constantly everyday, as I do with them in my heart. I long for their hugs, their laughter, sweet touches. I want to make memories that will comfort me when I feel like I do in the future. It is sad distance can make missing someone worse and worse with every passing day. But you love them more and more with everyday too.
The growing up part of life is something I despise. Some change, and that which they once could fulfill, they no longer do. Others, are swept off their feet to go on to the continuation of their life time dreams, their life mission. They have to do what they have to do. If
Getting ready to leave this cruel city, going to see them, makes me feel like a child on Christmas morning, who has for the last while had their face plastered to the glass of the store that carried their most prized and sought after toy. It feels as if time and distance has been fighting together to keep my life far away so ours cannot become intertwined...
Until I see their sweet faces, tears will continue to fall as I lay alone at night, and the most memorable memories will keep the smile on my face during the day
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