Too long I and my heart and my feelings and emotions have been silenced. The memories of the 19 years of my life, swept under the rug of my heart. I decided. It is time to be selfish and stand for what I believe in. I finally got the backbone I have needed, but been afraid to display, in fear of hurting people (people who don't care about me, my family, nor my well being).
How good it feels to release everything out into the open, let it float away into the sky. I am letting go, and letting God deal with it.
All the tormenting, taunting, teasing, the things should never touch a young heart, least to say, never stay there.
I am tired of letting others stand on me, the weight was too much to bear, I was afraid if I moved, they would fall...but that is what they deserve... Karma is one thing that is constant, and always will be.
Let me paint this picture for you...
A young girl, reaching out for friends, being pushed away instead. Lies and rumors spread around like a virus. Snickers because she did not look and act like the rest. Singled out, laughed at, making her shrink, she hides in the corner. She sits down by one she wants as her friends, she and the whole row of mean girls pick their chairs up and move. Coming home, she locks herself in her room, and cries. She loses herself for the sake of others appraisal and approval. She has always been the topic of controversy, the number 1 on their list...oh how flattering. All their talking only caused themselves more harm, more harm than they will ever know. They do not know that they cannot build off tearing others down, they just become more shallow, and when they fall, they fall long and hard, and it will hurt. They wont get out of the grave they dug themselves. And now I can bury them...
They taught the little girl too well, too quickly...she knows better now. She has had enough.
Yet she pity's them, for they have fallen behind now, and she walks on top, on solid ground. Shes moved on, and not coming back...
God counted every tear that her eyes leaked. Ever bridge she built, has been fortified, from under the ground, up.
Try shaking her, you will only break. Not all has been in vain...God built her for the worst. And He is the great avenger. So She prays for their poor souls....They have only done her soul good. She has the unbreakable heart, and invincible mind.
She is taking on the world without fear.
By bring her down to the depths, making her swim in deep water, she had to fight to climb up; she is faster, stronger, smarter. Her skin is thicker. She is ready. She has spoken up, and it pierces them to the soul, shaking their foundations.
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